This is where I bitch.

Nothing like a call from a credit card company to take away all one's ambition and drive to even try. I'm not sure how those people survive their jobs. How can someone destroy people's lives and take away all of their self confidence like that for 8 hours a day?

I felt sick to my stomach before the call, now it's worse.

Company meeting later today, so I will try and stick it out. My bet is we will go down to 3 unpaid days off a pay period. There has been rumors of more work coming in, but I'm not going to get my hopes up.

Laura, Jack and Rob are flying out to Saudi Arabia this morning. By tonight they will be over 7,000 miles away.

Softball was fun last night, though I really don't feel like talking about that. We were short a player, not happy with him, and I had to pitch and cover second base all game. Lots of running. We almost won, but the other team rallied in the last inning. Great people, hopefully we can get most of them back next year.

It's depressing seeing how much money I made last year with tons of overtime and two jobs and knowing how financially screwed we still are. Where dose it go? I just don't understand.

Not sure if I am working overtime this weekend yet, this current project is so random with the amount of work I have at any give time. Maybe I'll call Eric and see if he still needs me at the mall after 2 months of not working.

Softball meeting this weekend. Jess and I are going to co-coach a team, if they need us. She's usually pissed at what ever coach she has, usually due to just being on a bad team. And if I have someone to help, I should be able to handle it. I'll probably handle logistics, while she can focus on coaching skills.

D&D Saturday night, the group will get to finally move down to level 2 of the dungeon.

And I have to finish my taxes this weekend and get started on my next picture for Abbie's podcast. The next picture will be more detailed and have more people, so will probably take more time. I should put the last one up at Deviant art soon.

I cheated on my "no credit card" plan. I needed breakfast this morning and we have no food in the house. So hit McD's. And I needed a father's day gift for dad. Need to hide it away again tonight.

I forgot my sun glasses on Sunday at Jess and Lari's, need to swing by soon. Too sunny to drive without them.

We lost our softball game last night by one run in the bottom of the 7th. It was a pretty good game. Most of our team needs skills training, but that is what the league is for. I do take offense at the inconsistent reffing, the lack of energy of my team, and the crappy coaching. Jess and I are planning on cocoaching next year. That way it won't overwhelm either of us. My coach doesn't even know everyone's name yet. Season is half over. Just lazy. her coach isn't any better. I slid again and now my other knee has a scrape on it. When will I learn I'm old?

Still on same boring project at work.

I usually don't remember my dreams, but last night I dreamed I was hanging out with Em and she was ignoring me. Not sure what that means, but I think we need to hang out again soon.