This is where I bitch.

I had so much fun at volleyball last night. Our team did OK, only won one of three. But after the game the guys that I met on the SUnday league (and the ones that I'm starting the national team with) showed up and we played pick up games against Lin and Al's team. I was totally right, if I play with a team where I am not one of the best players, where the level of play is much higher, I step up to that level too. I was hitting really well andeven had good digs and passes. It was a blast.

After that a few of us headed down to the Shamrock for a few. Saw people, drank, mostly hung out with Brett and Mike.

Also, boys continue to be confusing. Well not confusing, just complicated.

EDIT: I still love Jay Brannan, I'm totally relating to Half-Boyfriend

I had the most bubbly tax agent at H&R Block last night. Very excited woman. But as she said, if someone has to pull a 14 hour shift doing taxes, they have to make taxes fun. I basically sat there and was amused. She did, however, almost double my deductions, so I should be getting a nice refund check. I have to go back in and give her my closeing cost numbers, the person at the front desk that I called and asked what I needed to bring in for house taxes forgot to mention that. So we will wrap them up on Monday.

I would like to go out tonight, I'm in the mood to do it. After In Nomine dinner, of course. But I should stay in and work on AFB stuff. That money is really nice to have coming. And they will wait only so long before they get really pissy. Not that I care if they dislike me, but it'd be nice to keep that job going. So I will try and be good and stay in. Mostly since I won't have time to do it at all this weekend. Maybe I'll bribe myself with wine.

Today is just full of fires to put out at work. I have a list of what I want to get done and just have no time to get to it. Feeling stressed now. I'm not sure what is up. I used to deal with stress much better. I'll have to figure something out. Like realizing that it's not that big of a deal. The world will not end for anything I do, any job I do is not that important.

I think I should track what I spend my time on and figure out how to oragnize it so I'm not so booked. The big worry is while I'd like a boyfriend, can I deal with that just adding to my busy-ness?

I'm in a mildly depressive/grumpy mood. And there's no good reason for it. Nothing has gone wrong or changed. I'm also sleeping a lot, or sleeping in a lot. I don't really get home to go to sleep early. Maybe this weekend will be nice. I'm kinda on two sides of this trip. A) Seeing mom and dad and getting rest, plus giving exarian some time off is good. B) Going to La Cross pride with Jimmy, going out with Bob, or seeing any of the guys that I'm not on a mission to date would be lots of fun too.

Oh well, a break from da gays might be a good thing.

Work seems to be going better. As anyone can guess since I haven't bitched about it lately. We are back to where we were a year ago. India is doing good on the easy (which is most of it) stuff. I work on the tough things, trying to help them get it in gear. Learning new stuffs and getting back into R&D also.

Well, I've gotten political. My friend Daniel has been bugging me to help out for a bit now. I don't want to call people for poles or write letters to newspapers, so I told him I can design a poster or something. So tonight I designed 4 buttons for volunteering. They will hand them out at the open house tonight.

Volleyball went fine, got 2 of 3. And I think one of the subs was hitting on me. She seems nice and all, but yeah, she. Flattered though.

It was nice to see Matt and Matt out at the bar, hadn't talked to either in a while.

Well, I can't use "kissing/making out" as a factor to decide between Jimmy and Bob. They are both really good. :sigh: Stupid mixed signals boys...

The softball picnic was lots of fun. We played volleyball for a short time and a bunch of people said I should start a gay volleyball league. I might do that next year, thought it's a lot of work.

Made out with Jimmy this time, since Bob never showed up. I also invited Jimmy up to mom and dad's this weekend, but he has plans. Probably for the best, as mom and dad might not be ready for me to bring guys home.

What dose one do when the guy he likes is out of town on vacation and he's not to pleased with him for standing him up at a bar? Make out with a different guy, of course!

Headachey/hung over today. Got in at 2:00. No one else in my department (of two and a half) are in today, just me. Plans for the weekend are shaky at best. Might call it a draw and do nothing instead.

I hate dating.

And I really hate being stood up. If he wanted to see me, he'd call or make an effort to show up, right? grrrr

At least Ben and Dan came out to keep my lonely ass company. This is not the way I wanted to leave this "whatever" before the vacation. I was going to have the "so, do you really like me?" conversation.

:sigh:

First: Your head will go splooy, go look, its worth it.

Second: Do people with significant others have anti-SO groups on LJ so they can post about issues that might adversly affect the relationship? I'm just curious--something I've wondered.

Last night was busy, but then what else is new? Two volleyball matches tonight, ankle is a bit better. StageQ meeting went well. I wasn't sure how "publicity by committee" was going to go, but the brain storming session for the copy on the brochure went very well. Two of our four productions I want to go to. One is a musical, A Kiss for Alexander, which is basically about Alexander the Great coming forward in time to help a gay choras line. And Gay's of our Lives is a gay-soap-parady. I'll post info for them when they come up.

Next I have to find a hot guy who will pose in a toga for me for pictures for A Kiss for Alexander. I'm hoping someone on softball will go for it. Maybe the cute OC boy August... I doubt David from volleyball will pose for a gay poster, but you never know.

I'm also noticing the lack of yoga in my body. I need to fix that.

((also... there was making out last night, thus in a good mood))

Tired again. I'm getting to that point where I try and figure out if I want to drop some activity. I'm not sure what it would be, and I'll probably just try and ride it out and see if things settle down. Most of my sports seasons are wrapping up, so the new seasons will be starting soon. That schedule rearrangment might help.

I also kinda wish that is anything is going to happen with Jimmy we could skip/speed up the "have to go out all the time to see each other" stage and move into a "hang out at home and chill" stage. I remember the fist stage with the ex-Jim. While fun, takes a lot out of you.

Ankle still twingy. Played a lot last night, had fun. Won 2 of 3.

Lots of work, and its still comeing in. We'll see if exarian can come in. I was so going to call them last night to see how it is going too. :sigh:

Also, randomly, I have no Queer as Folk US icons. Very confusing that.

Edit: I forgot to mention that Em almost killer herself last night. She was refing our game during pick up and the bar stool she was on had one leg off of the platteform by like a hlaf an inch. Leaving like half an inch of leg on the plateform still. All she would have had to do was rock a bit, or one of us players run into the pole and she'd have fallen off backwards and fell like six feet. Very scary.