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[radlilim]

Feeling blah today. Worn out as usual. I got an email this morning for a fic/art community that I've done art for in the past. It's Heroes fiction and last time I did a piece for a Heroes/Supernatural cross over. They were looking for more artists since they had more stories than people making art. I was honored and got kinda excited. So I went and signed up, only to find that all of the stories are now taken. Now I feel let down. The thought of being creative and artistic again was uplifting. It's been a while since I really did any art and I'm sure my skills are turning to crap. They say there might be another round of stories, but I'm not going to get my hopes up. Life just seems a long string of things I don't want to do. Sports is like the highlight these days and enjoying that is so dependent on how well I do (still too competitive for my own damn good).

All the stress is piling up again. No real sign of a break either.