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radlilimOK, this is my last post before I drop off the face of the cyber earth for a week. A few thing before I go...
[Oh, just a warning, semi-drunk while writing this]
MJ - I'm not overly happy with our conversation. I don't think it's fair for you to talk about how your friends need to accept the goodness of their lives, and then you claim that you don't have the right to suggest how to live a good life. Your's seems pretty cool, I'm envious. Maybe there are things that I don't know about yet, and that's cool. But from where I stand, you rock. So, I'd like to actually have that conversation on your outlook on life and how to live an enjoyable one. I assume it has something to do with enjoying what you have, and not crying over what you don't have. Now I do realize that in a lot of parts of my life I have it pretty cool, but the important one, where I'm with a special someone, that's where I lack happiness, and where I want it the most. So, I'm really all for figuring out someway for me to not dwell on what I'm missing and enjoying what I have, but when all my friends pair up at the end of the night to fuck/sleep/cuddle together and I have to go to my bed all alone, like I have for the past 5 years of my life, it's hard to keep the happy face up and running.
I know I'm deluding myself about the part where I go on my vacation meet someone and have a nice 2 day fling. Cause I know that I'm not that kind of person, you know, the one that actually mets someond intereseted in me. But I can't completely stop hoping, I'd die inside if that happened. Although, sometimes I wish I would, stop hoping that is. It might just make life easier.
The night was so fun, and then, like every night, everyone leaves, I feel very alone and get depressed. Wish I knew of a way to fix this.
Well, on my first spring break trip I left very stressed out and with a ulcer and came back with a new outlook on life. Maybe that can happen again. Maybe I'll find religion or something, give my life focus and a point. One can only hope.
Wow, reading back... drunk aimless writing is kinda cool.
Well, here's me wishing to met someone before I die, everyone pray with me now. I can't be that much of a fucking loser, right?
maybe it'd help if I cry.
Oh, and repkying to this would be kinda pointless, since I won't see any posts for over 9 days.
Have a good time without me, and don't forget to miss me.
later.
[Oh, just a warning, semi-drunk while writing this]
MJ - I'm not overly happy with our conversation. I don't think it's fair for you to talk about how your friends need to accept the goodness of their lives, and then you claim that you don't have the right to suggest how to live a good life. Your's seems pretty cool, I'm envious. Maybe there are things that I don't know about yet, and that's cool. But from where I stand, you rock. So, I'd like to actually have that conversation on your outlook on life and how to live an enjoyable one. I assume it has something to do with enjoying what you have, and not crying over what you don't have. Now I do realize that in a lot of parts of my life I have it pretty cool, but the important one, where I'm with a special someone, that's where I lack happiness, and where I want it the most. So, I'm really all for figuring out someway for me to not dwell on what I'm missing and enjoying what I have, but when all my friends pair up at the end of the night to fuck/sleep/cuddle together and I have to go to my bed all alone, like I have for the past 5 years of my life, it's hard to keep the happy face up and running.
I know I'm deluding myself about the part where I go on my vacation meet someone and have a nice 2 day fling. Cause I know that I'm not that kind of person, you know, the one that actually mets someond intereseted in me. But I can't completely stop hoping, I'd die inside if that happened. Although, sometimes I wish I would, stop hoping that is. It might just make life easier.
The night was so fun, and then, like every night, everyone leaves, I feel very alone and get depressed. Wish I knew of a way to fix this.
Well, on my first spring break trip I left very stressed out and with a ulcer and came back with a new outlook on life. Maybe that can happen again. Maybe I'll find religion or something, give my life focus and a point. One can only hope.
Wow, reading back... drunk aimless writing is kinda cool.
Well, here's me wishing to met someone before I die, everyone pray with me now. I can't be that much of a fucking loser, right?
maybe it'd help if I cry.
Oh, and repkying to this would be kinda pointless, since I won't see any posts for over 9 days.
Have a good time without me, and don't forget to miss me.
later.
