Drunk again
Jul. 12th, 2003 02:21 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
radlilimPreface: these drunken posts after bar time are gonna get me in trouble.
Going out with couples is really hard. I spend lots o time staring into space while the have kissy private talks. I don't begrudge them for it, just wish it was me. I think I need to find single friends to drag out with us, cause even the memory of Bosie can't keep the depression at bay when I'm drunk and all I can see around me is happy couples.
What the fuck is worng with me. Thinking maybe I should get a private site for these rambleings cause they are gonna just cause problems. But I'm hoping that this will allow me to sleep sound and not do anything rash.
Not even sure I want to dot he P-ville trip now. It'll be fine once I get there and have people to hang with, but If all the other singles punk out, I might just cancel. Don't know if I can put up with this all weekend in a hotel room. It reminds me of the sophmore year spring break and people fucking in every bathroom in each hotel room on the trip.
What the fuck is wrong with me? Even my cat dosn't like me as much anymore since I shaved the beard off. *sigh* Maybe I'll just move to Boise, where I can at least get some. Cause I don't have lots of hope for that here. maybe I just won't get up tomorrow, staying in bed all day is kinda a nice idea. Why get up anyway? Sleep until Monday when I can go back to my no-where job.
Fuck.
I'm probably just doing this for the attention. So fucking transparent that I can see though it. Fuck.
At least I got a few compliments on the Twinkie shirt.
Cry now.
Going out with couples is really hard. I spend lots o time staring into space while the have kissy private talks. I don't begrudge them for it, just wish it was me. I think I need to find single friends to drag out with us, cause even the memory of Bosie can't keep the depression at bay when I'm drunk and all I can see around me is happy couples.
What the fuck is worng with me. Thinking maybe I should get a private site for these rambleings cause they are gonna just cause problems. But I'm hoping that this will allow me to sleep sound and not do anything rash.
Not even sure I want to dot he P-ville trip now. It'll be fine once I get there and have people to hang with, but If all the other singles punk out, I might just cancel. Don't know if I can put up with this all weekend in a hotel room. It reminds me of the sophmore year spring break and people fucking in every bathroom in each hotel room on the trip.
What the fuck is wrong with me? Even my cat dosn't like me as much anymore since I shaved the beard off. *sigh* Maybe I'll just move to Boise, where I can at least get some. Cause I don't have lots of hope for that here. maybe I just won't get up tomorrow, staying in bed all day is kinda a nice idea. Why get up anyway? Sleep until Monday when I can go back to my no-where job.
Fuck.
I'm probably just doing this for the attention. So fucking transparent that I can see though it. Fuck.
At least I got a few compliments on the Twinkie shirt.
Cry now.
