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radlilimOk, so this post will probably upset people. But I'm thinking that if I get it down somewhere, I can get it out of my head and maybe sleep.
1) Being 5th wheel still sucks.
2) I'm depressed/angry. This is a new state. Right up there with the infamous Majestic night and depressed/reckless. I feel like breaking something, or maybe doing something to my body, shaved head, tattoo, get something pierced. I donno, at least break somthing. It'll proably be done by tomorrow.
Maybe my cousin can set me up with some vacationa sex out in Boise, that might help. Since I'm doing such a steller job meeting someone in this state. Maybe I'm in the wrong place, maybe I should move like I was planning to a few months ago. We'll see how Boise is, cause if I go there at least I'd have a place to crash for a bit till I work something out.
fuck me
1) Being 5th wheel still sucks.
2) I'm depressed/angry. This is a new state. Right up there with the infamous Majestic night and depressed/reckless. I feel like breaking something, or maybe doing something to my body, shaved head, tattoo, get something pierced. I donno, at least break somthing. It'll proably be done by tomorrow.
Maybe my cousin can set me up with some vacationa sex out in Boise, that might help. Since I'm doing such a steller job meeting someone in this state. Maybe I'm in the wrong place, maybe I should move like I was planning to a few months ago. We'll see how Boise is, cause if I go there at least I'd have a place to crash for a bit till I work something out.
fuck me
