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[radlilim]

Occasionally I stop and take stock of my life. I break my life into 5 categories, family, work/financial, social/friends, love life and mental/physical health. Usually 3 to 4 of them are on the "happy" side of the scale. I suppose some people might argue that spiritual would be a 6th, but since I'm not a terribly spiritual person, I don't.

I did this again toady on the walk home from work.

Family: Not going so great since my news has hit them. A few are putting forth a good effort, but its hard on them, which I understand, and leads to some uncomfortable moments.

Work: Sucks. Most of my friends are out of a job now, the few who are left all feel like me and hate their job. Starting next week I'll be making less money and have less benefits. I also don't know what I'll be doing, can't find any where else to work, and feel like shit because while I think the I'm worth a lot as an employee, I can't seem to find anyone who agrees with me.

Friends: This is fine. My friends are still great, and I can still count on them. We are drifting though, which is natural. Due to the firings at work, growing up and settling down, I see less and less of them all the time. My online friends are fun, but most of them I've only just met and aren't real close to yet (with a few exceptions).

Love life: Nonexistent. And while I might have some possibilities, nothing really promising.

Health: I'm tired and depressed. I am apparently allergic to my laundry detergent and have a rash over a lot of my body. I'd go to the doctor, but since my insurance is now done with until I get hired by the new company, I really can't.

I am now tired and depressed and going to take a nap instead of doing stuff the NEEDS to get done. Someone wake me when life is better, OK?

This is not a "I want pity" post. Just thought out the post on the walk home and getting it out there helps me feel better, I hope.

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I understand

[flamestar-m.livejournal.com]

Just letting you know that I understand the best I can. I too find times where doing anything is just too much, and I don't want to get out of bed. I guess all I can say is what other people say to me. You are strong, and you can make it through these times that look bleak. Just continue to be confident in yourself, and things will fall into place.


I know it sounds hokey, but I get so down sometimes that I forget that I am a capable person. So anyways, remember what you have that is good and hold onto it until the other stuff looks up, and of course if you want to talk or anything you know, let me know. :) /comfort